food inc.

I'm starting to have these weird feelings when I'm near or going to eat cooked meat,any meat it doesn't matter.I'm wondering when I'm opening my mouth "Will I die from this?" of course don't most people?I'm not saying that I have chicken-phobia, but must we eat with the fear of dieing?E-coli was no worry to me because I've never heard of it before, the main sickness that I was worried about at the most would be food poisoning.I'm sick to my stomach because I know what happens to my food.The whole movie I kept on asking myself:"This is what goes in my mouth? seriously?"I can't thank Food Inc. but, I can't thank them neither, they showed me the truth about something that I didn't focus on and was not any type of concerned about.Even if I do clean my meat, cook it right and everything, the essential question that pops into my head is: "will I die if I eat this?"
Recently me and my mom ordered from Apollo ,it's a restaurant mixed with Spanish and Chinese food.In an attempt to disgust my mother, I flapped the wing of my half rotisserie chicken.I realized were the head had been chopped off,and that I just ate the chicken's leg.The part that I was ready to eat (I realized) was none other than the BUTT HOLE!!!!Yup, it's true I was disgusted, so close to throwing up, too close.I could picture the chicken alive : Not being able to stand up.Too overweight to obtain it's body weight. I tried to show my mom what the heck she was eating but ,she wouldn't listen.I just then realized how American citizens are still so blinded about what enters their mouths, were it's been, and how it's been treated.As a result can't try to eat meat without gaging.This doesn't mean that I'm a vegetarian it means that I know whats going into my mouth and how it was treated.